Hmm. Lately I just feel like I'm going through the motions. Granted my friends haven't raised me from the dead thinking they were saving me from a eternity of hellish sufferings when in fact they had ripped me from the comforting bliss of heaven. I don't have time to write. Can be late-- today. So here's Buffy's take on Going through the motions from the musical episode, Once More With Feeling. Incidentally I think the new speech therapist and I are going to be fast friends. She was telling a story the other day and at one point said, "It's like that one time on Buffy . . ."

(Buffy:)
Every single night
The same arrangement
I go out and fight the fight
Still I always feel
This strange estrangement
Nothing here is real
Nothing here is right
I’ve been making shows of trading blows
Just hoping no one knows
That I’ve been
Going through the motions
Walking through the part
Nothing seems to penetrate my heart
I was always brave
And kind of righteous
Now I find I’m wavering
Crawl out of you grave
You find this fight just
Doesn’t mean a thing
(Vampire:)
She ain’t got that swing
(Buffy:)
Thanks for noticing
(Demon and vamps:)
She does pretty well with fiends from hell
But lately we can tell
That she’s just
Going through the motions
Faking it somehow
(Demon:)
She’s not even half the girl she-ow…
(Buffy:)
Will I stay this way forever
Sleepwalk through my life’s endeavor
(Handsome young victim man:)
How can I repay-
(Buffy:)
-Whatever
I don’t want to be
Going through the motions
Losing all me drive
I can’t even see if this is really me
And I just want to be--
Alive!